What do I understand by the word understanding? As simple as you seemed when we first met in primary education's PETS coursebook, we actually drifted further apart as we further understand each other. No matter how many split-personalities you have, you are of a superior power of discernment; enlightened intelligence no doubt.

Its not easy being an understanding person. Its even harder being an understanding person of goodwill. We are who we are through nature and nurture. Even though I felt being borne in the wrong time of life, what life has offered me was indeed much more fortunate than many. I have great parents who possess aspects I respect beside breeding and bringing me up. Although I don't communicate with them much, knowing them for 18years did give me much understanding. My mother has a stubborn yet typical auntie character which had frightened off many of my friends. I still remember the times when my friends would definitely ask for her absence before coming over my house. For all uncomfortableness she may show to the outside world, I know she values kinship a lot. Especially to her hand-grown siblings. Being the eldest female among her seven siblings, many things has to be taken into her own hands. Maybe it's really the hard times that grind a person. She developed a strong nature. What I actually admire is her strong belief in kinship. Despite inviting troubles time and time again, saying "this is the last time" for countless of times, she never gives up.

This is her nephew, my cousin. With your cross-referencing skills, I believe you can deduce she has none of understanding nor goodwill. However, she did grow up in an unpleasant environment with her parents switching roles with my mother. Illegally or legally robbing, she was forgiven. Changing a person is akin to killing a person. Except that the party killed will be the one trying to change the other. But now that she is married, I hope that she will have a better life ahead. That will be the best gratitude to my mother as well.

Recently, my mother secretly told me that after she passed on, she will leave majority of her assets to one of my aunt who often makes her go "vomiting blood" and then the remaining to me. This is supposed to be even kept from my father. Because in the eyes of general public, this aunt of mine certainly has an incorrigible nature in every sense. "Because she is my sister" will be the reason behind my mother's doing. The word "sister" alone can appease every frustration incurred, every decision erred, and every tears shed.

I kept mum throughout like I always do. But I felt great in my heart that she is able to stay firm to her belief throughout her life which many may falter. Those words from her gave birth to this post of mine. Being a person of values certainly does not pay. In fact it's worse than crime. Just like an artist whose beautification to the world will only be discovered upon demise. However, a true artist don't draw for returns...